ITS ME !

The gloomy week

2011-09-04T02:10:00.000-07:00

Things ain't going right enough, at least not what I expected.
Just felt so tired, for everything I've been trying, and afterall it's still zero.

Searching jobs high and low, an unexpected call while having dinner,
afterall, still I got rejected. I'm fine with it, just sick of being rejected,
and seeing all the "Thank you" emails, just made me so tired.

Mind went whirl while having the test on Friday,
messed up my thoughts, which I don't even understand, why I got all my principles upside down.
It's not suppose to be that case, but still it turn out to be. What's done cannot be undone.
I was just holding on to this little hope, that I don't screwed the test too badly.

All along, the smile, the brave front that I'm putting on, is not pure enough.
Believe it or not, I say I'm okay with it, I've gotten use to being rejected.
But actually, deep down, I know I'm still hanging on to some hopes.

Lost my transperth card while travelling yesterday.
Yes, sucha careless mistake.
I need to wake up from my dream, seems like I've been living in a mist this week.
Time to wake up, time to brace myself up again,
after all the down feelings.

I need a hot bath, to to remind me that, everything's gonna be okay,
it's just about when is the time.
Pray for me. I will be grateful.

When you're faraway

2011-07-25T08:52:00.001-07:00

Do you know when you're in a faraway place,
in your small little room, having your mind blank,
your thoughts will start to wonder around, sinking deep down in thoughts.

Went back for my Winter break, I would say,
the perfect month, and I couldn't ask for anything more.
So glad that nothing much changes, still the usual warmth as before.
The moment you step down the plane, seeing all the familiar faces,
just made you smile like you never smiled before.
Meeting all the friends, the short catching up session,
still as sweet and close. That's the feeling.

Time spent there, described as short, sweet, fast.
Yes, treasured it so well. I'm really really glad to have them as my parents.
Know I've been saying this for umpteen times, but pardon me for saying it over again,
they're the best parents I could ever ask for.

When I'm back here, found myself thinking, is it a right thing to go back for the month?
Cause, all the home-sick feelings are back, and it lasted for 2 days or more.
That's not a good feeling, although knowing that, you've gotten use to it long ago.
But nonetheless, not regretting for going back, cause it's way too awesome.

Sincerely, thank you.

It's the easter - tuition free week

2011-04-21T22:59:00.000-07:00

Yes, its the holidays. now.
No excitement, not feeling any bit excited at all.
Don't ask me why, as there are no explanations.

A good Friday, I'm supposed to be out, to enjoy my holidays.
But well, nothing is open today, not even public transport. SIGH.
Too much things to be completed,
its supposed to be study week i supposed.
Test and assignments, piling up one by one.

Songs ringing constantly at my ear,
I miss MUSIC so badly, so not me,
not touching any instrument for 2 months,
this feeling sucks.
Solely by listening to songs, isn't enough.
You just need to play it by your own hand, feeling it by heart.
No accompaniment of instrument,
makes you feel so bored when you're lonely.
Alright, I shall stop complaining.

Been in sort of dilemma recently.
I need job so badly, submitted my resume's,
but no news yet. Will i get any news by next week?
I hope so.
Should I or should I not go back during July.
Yes, I miss my home country, friends family, so badly.
On the other hand, i wished to work here, to earn some extra income.
Lead me to the right decision.

Perseverance is what I need.

Can't wait for Easter

2011-04-09T08:55:00.000-07:00

Heyheyhey, how long since I've been here.

Can't believe, it's been 2 months since I've been in Perth,
yes 2 months. So fast ain't it?
Things had been fine.
Counted as more or less settled.
Just that academic part somehow domineering.
Just gonna hang on through it.
I should treasure and be glad that I had this chance to came by,
I shouldn't be procrastinating.

Went all sorts of places, but not all yet.
Good enough. Balancing the work and fun,
loving this kind of life currently.

Know what, during your free time,
you can't just stone there, looking through pictures on website and stuffs,
I swear it makes your heart turn so silent, deep down in thoughts,
thinking how each and everyone is doing,
wondering how are they, and missing the times of hanging out,
missing the time of chatting, where the time just pass by without realizing it's been hours since the conversation started.
how reminiscence.

Thing's are not always turn out as expected,
and unexpected things happen unexpectedly,
hang on through it,
there will always be a pathway that leads you out.
Persevere through with a smile, the best solution.

There's this woman, when I was with my friend,
she said it to her:
"don't forget to smile".

Autumn's approaching

2011-03-06T05:05:00.000-08:00

Alright, week 1 of school officially over.
In fact, tomorrow is the second week.
Well, I wouldn't say its really alright for me.
Classes hasn't been easy.
It's all by our own.
Printing lecture notes, doing pre-reading,
understanding every part on our own.
If not you might just get so so lost in your lectures/tutorials.

One thing that I'm worrying, the lab sessions.
According to seniors, its fun and cool,
but its like every lab they are observing what you're doing,
even counting marks on almost every session.
gosh, how serious it sounds like.
I'm so afraid, but I just gonna do my besttt.

I am feeling the stress upon each coming lecture/tutorials/labs/workshops.
There's just too much stuffs for me to do day by day.
Workload just gonna increase unexpectedly.
I needa like chill myself down, preparing for study mode on,
after the weekend, and yes tomorrow is Monday.

And know what, there's like groupings in workshop.
I hope they are all good group mates to work with.
If not I might be feeling how lost.
Pray pray pray.

That's all for now.

Overview of Perth!

2011-02-25T06:41:00.000-08:00

Here are some photos of Perth:

My room! :)

The sunset view from my hostel :) PRETYYY NICEE

The Perth City View

Green is common in Perth

The BLUE BLUE SKY!

The crystal clear sea!

Thats all for now, gonna post in on Fb soon enough!

The days that passed by...

2011-02-24T19:34:00.000-08:00

So didn't really get the chance to explore the city yet,
without my smartrider card (like ez-link), and my student ID,
which I can't really do anything in the moment just yet.

Trust me, another day without internet for the 3rd day in Perth.
Emotions, pictures, situation just flashed through,
as I got nothing to do at night,
no books, no shows, NOTHING.
And yes, its the 3rd day which i broke down, for around 10 minutes,
waking up in a sense, urging myself to head to bead at 10pm,
without thinking any further.

On going days and days, I was fine afterall.
Got my internet connection like finally,
I was skyping with family and friends,
which made me find back the heart-warming feeling,
yes it's a good day, i said to myself.

Soon, I begin to get use to the life in Perth,
and yes I'm pretty satisfied with it.
As it's really a different experience for me.
Attended most of the orientation programmers,
I must admit, it's hard to catch what they are speaking,
I just got to get use to it soon enough.
But, I met 2 friends from Malaysia, and I felt so happy about it :)

Days passed by which I went to the city by trains, bus.
Yes the city is big enough, with all the shops, like Cotton On, etc,
but yeah, stuffs are super ex over here,
its like dollar to dollar as Singapore.
Went to cottlesloe beach as well,
was so amazed by it.
Beach water is crystal clear, which the color makes you feel so peaceful.
Except the weather part turns me off,
it's burning hot over here, which max is 40 degrees I've experienced.
I went to the night view in Perth as well,
the scenery just made me "jaw dropped".
Wanted to take some pictures, but I was at the ferry port,
where the lightnings in the building are just too far away,
which nothing had been captured.

Orientation somehow ended,
met some seniors who are doing Pharmacy as well,
and they speak exact same thing.
Which got me feel the stress coming on even before classes start.
I need to do well, go on smoothly with the 4 years I'm doing over here,
I'm praying to myself, Yes I need to pull myself together,
to hang on.
The advices alerted me that, It's not gonna be easy,
since I'm here, I should just do the best.
I can't be possibly letting my parents down,
the amount of hard-earn money that they put in for me,
it's more than i could ever ask for.

Bless me for classes starting on Monday,
weeks or even years.
cya!

The departur-ed post

2011-02-24T19:27:00.000-08:00

So wondering what's going on ever since thursday, feb 10?

THE FIRST 2 DAYS IN PERTH.

Woke up early in the morning for my flight.
Went to Airport.
Waited for Ann to reach, thanks for sending me off,
especially when she's the only one.
Dreading to leave, but yeah i know i just got to catch my flight.

Flight was delayed for around an hour,
due to some engine problems.
So I reached Perth around 4.30pm.
Big thanks to Zhiyang's cousin for fetching us to the shopping malls
to get us through the night and morning meals.
And there, she brought me to my accommodation,
where she once lived here 12 years ago.
Yes, she got a cute daughter named Emma!

Alrights, so went in the office, check-ed in,
started my induction session,
some kind of briefing and all.
And there I go unpacking stuffs in my room,
settling down the bed sheets and all.
Sadly, I was unable to connect to the wireless connection,
which I don't know what error occurs.
So I called my parents, chatting on phone for around 15 minutes,
hang off the call,
and the silent night passed by.

Woke up around 8+ today,
which i planned my schedule yesterday.
Walking through the pathway that leads me to my uni,
the weather's over here is still hot,
but with the strong breeze blowing.
It took me around 20 minutes to get to the place,
for payments, and I opened a bank account.
Went back to my room, tried to fix my internet connection,
but failed to do so, walked over to the uni again for some IT services.
Finally they fixed it, so went to enrol in my units,
and i went for lunch with my friend.

So when i got back home,
I realized the connection is still not available.
Which got me abit pissed off and down down down,
mood goes so down, which i nearly tear-ed.
I will see what can I do tommorrow.

2 nights without internet and you'll feel how lost in the whole wide world,
without someone you know over here, that you can really talk to.

Surprisingly, I survived without much home-sick ness, etc,
but still it's too early to say.

"Did not" Expect the Unexpected

2011-02-07T06:19:00.000-08:00

I think my friends, family members, everyone just got me speechless.
they did something which made me so unexpected.

Last Saturday, had a short meetup session in Pelangi with others.
Apparently its actually a birthday celebration for ivy lee and farewell for me.
I thought it's just some simple dinner, some catch over session with them before i fly off.
Never did i expect, they did a video,
A SUPER DUPER TOUCHING VIDEO FOR ME.
THANK YOU SO SO SO SO MUCH.
In the midst of the video, I just didn't manage to control my tears,
flashbacks all happened at the same time, which i caught myself in deeper sorrows.
Thank you for the efforts !

Next on, chinese new year, basically was just some "bainian",
at some relative house which lasted for day 1 only.
Day 2 went to Zixin's farewell party, oh ya i wonder how's she doing over there now!
Day 3 went Mr low's house as usual. An annual meetup.
We had our gambling session, yes i did not really earn anything,
but i went home with 1 wallet which i really love it alot alot,
a samsung camera and a box of letter as farewell gift.

Frankly speaking, i think i have the greatest friends and family in my whole life.
People who took part in the planning, who made me the letters,
who chip in for the gift, i really appreciate it alot.
Their hardworks, their love i can feel it,
and it's the greatest gift for me. Thank you.

Can i end off by thanking her?
I am so glad that she is my sister, I so love her,
she did too many things, she bought so many things,
even though she shows tempers at times,
but the simple actions from her,
just made me touch enough.

Some pictures below from past few days!

The farewell gifts~

Can't take it

2011-01-26T08:43:00.000-08:00

Clock represents? TIME.

I suddenly caught myself in so much thoughts today.
On the car, looking outside the window,
catching the beautiful scenery with little raindrops,
my mind wander around and I started pondering what kind of life would I be having over there.

What would it be like without my family, friends and all...
that I often used to hang out with.
The joy that I experienced with them, would it be the same or different feeling after all?

Nothing seems to be under my control now,
The time pace are too fast for me to catch up,
which I did not even realize its nearly 1am now.
I so wanna treasure the time left for me,
but did I make the effort to do so? I wonder.
I upset with myself for not making enough initiatives for the meet-ups,
and I am panicking now for the time left.

I got myself so emo, listening to the songs to keep me calm,
thinking, its alright, few months away I will be back typing,
I A-M B-A-C-K.

Single digits knocking on my door soon,
I pray for everything over.
Thank god.

Words can't express everything

2011-01-22T08:16:00.000-08:00

My mind's dictionary,
limited words left, when comes to expressing myself.
The only word that I can express my gratitude left "Thank You".
I got so much to say, so grateful towards,
but when it comes to saying it out, I caught myself speechless.

Pondering back,
they are too noble, like so much more,
than anything that I had expected to receive.
They don't ask for anything, they don't request for anything,
but they give us what we requested.

They have done so much, from past to present,
nothing changes.
They are still doing their best trying to fulfill everything for us.
And yet, we seems to be asking for more day by day.

I guess its time to start thinking,
why are they working so hard,
why are they slogging so hard,
why they did not have any complains at all.
Simply because we are their children,
and they want the best for us.

With a rough calculate,
I think this time round, their financial burden increases too much,
and I began to feel guilty about it.
I don't know what to say,
but only to end of with the word :

they are the best parents that I could ever ask for.

The random post

2011-01-16T07:57:00.000-08:00

Trust me, I am not into korean songs / korean pops!
But this BANMAL SONG is seriously a nice song! simply love it.

So, concert over.
Bet this is my last concert with MCO.
Well, memories will stay right?! :)

Now, I got to buy finish some necessities, before cny came knocking on the door.
I so desperately wanted to have some outings, before I leave!
Like last year, so hardcore, without much meet ups and I somehow left the sg world.
In fact, I miss the time so much! So now, not the time for regret! hah.

tick tock tick tock. I can't seems to catchup with the fast time pace.
bless me !

2010-11-30T04:21:00.000-08:00

Trust me.
Don't look at this post.
Its' gonna be wholly crap.

What a day.
Nothing's been good.
I'm in lost.
I'm in fault.
Everything's upside down.

Thank you for the day.

2010-07-15T21:39:00.000-07:00

FRIDAY.
earliest time ever that we are released from school.
1 hour of lesson and we are back home.
Can you imagine? HAHA!.

So, busy weeks started.
heavy loaded of studies. heavy chapters.
where brain cells are used up.
plus research project and stuffs.
persevering for half year more.

But, despite that, i still wanna watch MOVIE!
like yeah.
despicable me? back-up plan?
and so forth ! :)
when is the dayy?

sayonara!

2010-07-06T07:46:00.000-07:00

And so, i'm like so frequently posting.
But lesser post in time to come.
Not a great week to start off.
Timetable wasnt that appealing. it changed.
and became 3 days till 5.30pm.
plus all the jamming part.
dead tired for it.
mon, wed and thurs. like congrats to me yeah.

and 2 upcoming individual projects,
and 2 upcoming individual presentation.
draft should be due in few weeks time.
whats more?
have to be mentally prepared.
bye guys.

i know this post sounds super emo,
and yeah, i'm really
down down downn.

2010-07-05T07:26:00.000-07:00

Hey. I seriously need miraclee like nowww!
right at the moment.
but still, thanks for the effort sis!
grateful kayy.

rahhh. i hope everything goes on smoothly,
if not i dont know whats the outcome will be .

and yeah, sat gone. gosh .
i gotta face malay in few days time.
timetable out , quite pleasing actually . except for sat.
But heavy loads awaits. 2 presentations.
2 reports, coming on the way..

Over & Over ~

2010-06-28T20:52:00.000-07:00

Yesterday..

So, results out.
but not at 5pm.
I tried my luck early in the morning,
and gosh, so unexpectedly the numbers are there already!
Tskk.

Next on, slacking through the afternoon.
My last few days of enjoying.
Out with my Mum, drove her down,
and seriously, i gotta improve my skills!
And, she drove back at last. Hahas.

Back home in the evening,
dinner : pineapple fried rice!
cool, first try .
Helped my bro for his story at night and
tv programmes ended my day.

Now, everyone's out!
I am bored over here.
rahh .

Revive?

2010-06-26T08:49:00.000-07:00

So, i just changed my blogskin,
its not like SUPER nice. but still finally done!
It took me super longg time to do it.

So anyway, school reopening soon.
But, one thing to worry first.
RESULTS. Sem 1 result, MONDAY.
like oh my!
long awaits, but worry! wish me luck, haha.

Gotta welcome Sem2, and returns to study life,
after 1 month of holidays.
I know, i didn't spend my holidays well enough,
basically are slacking throughout.
However, i do have fun times yeah !

off to go!

2010-06-01T23:34:00.000-07:00

exam exam and exam. it ended ! like yst.
HAHA, for almost one month like finally.
i am having hoidays now.

so now. like computer, tv, just entertainment.
super slacking.
out and out. i am gonna have meet ups.
and my phone, down. and sim card gotta get one back or smth.

and and. haha. fresh new now.
but its not obvious. haha.
get what i mean?

2010-05-19T03:29:00.001-07:00

guesss what.
now i am here.
something which i dont wanna face it,
and i actually expected it,
turns to be worst than i thought of.

there goes.
face and accept

2010-04-29T05:46:00.000-07:00

CAN YOU IMAGINE.
YES. my trial exam like ended! totally. yeaps.
well. one more paper to go tmr, MORAL paper.
kinda reluctant to study those principless.

so, hard weeks passed.
2 more weeks again i needa back mugging.
for my final exam for semester 1.
wish me luck. hahs.

what happens to my trial exam??
basically, all papers kinda bad. really.
like super duper difficult.
time management was another thing.
i hope isnt that bad.
but i got to prepare for the worst.

reluctant to be back to sch next mon for results :(

anw, dead blog heree. LOL

2010-04-15T07:28:00.000-07:00

HAD a hard time changing blogskinss.
and it came out as ERROR at last.
for around 2-3 times.
and i GAVE UP. haha.
super lazy. like cant find any errors.

this week was my holidayy.
and its ending soon. few more days.
omg. back to studdyyy.
so yeap. tues. piano? hah. no comments.

wed? home stayed.

thurs? out to pelangi kbox with
ivy lee, derek, yuxuan, swen zhen.
few hrs overr there.
i saw someone, just look alike with my relativee,
in the end seems like its wrong view ! ahahs.
but he was quite good looking. i would say.
thanks derek for the accompaniment.
reached home 8pm.

piles of homeworks undone.
all the best guys.

2010-03-28T00:53:00.000-07:00

hmm well.
tell me, how am i gonna survive
i played till i am so pissed of with myself.
just my hands rotting.
but still,
like no effects.

i dont wanna lose any hope.
2 more weeks.
i am getting so demoralise over it.
is thr even any chances?

2010-03-26T04:08:00.000-07:00

what? tired weeks.
huge eye bags.
blurred out of mind.

goodbyes .

2010-03-12T05:15:00.000-08:00

weekends?
yeah.
today. two tests.
biology and account.
just aint well done i guess.

mixed up. feeling unwell.
i need 48 hours a day.
to recuperate loss of slp.
undang test on sunday.
wish me luck.
i dint revised much for it.

2010-02-27T07:21:00.000-08:00

ahh. i am just bored .
and i came here.
to crap around.
cos i am reluctant to bury myself with books and homeworks.

well. my weight is getting on my nerves.
i am gonna cut down.
HAHA.
byes.

2010-02-18T06:16:00.000-08:00

These few days are great.
tues went to mr low's house to bai nian.
wednesday steamboat at yuxuan's house.
thursday went to sg for movie and back to wgs.

Its like finally .
i am meeting up with my friends this week.
and i have a great time.
simply miss all of them!

Well.today's movie.
"valentine's day"
hmm. roamntic show . hahas.
have my lunch at piazzahut too.
went to wgs. saw few of the teachers!
allrights. and thanks tyypey's mum for sending me back .
for me to rush for the dinner.

but, running thoughts in mind.
ah well. what can i do.

2010-02-12T03:00:00.000-08:00

OMG! i am back here posting.
hahahas.

well. HOIDAYS. CHINESE NEW YEAR.
like FINALLY yea.
1 week break.

well. tiring daysss.
i just finishh 3 test this week.
and i guess i dint do well?
basically not enough time.
ahh. forget it.

one thing for sure.
i miss all of my friends! ALOT.
hope to see you guys soob yea.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR ALL! tc =)

2010-01-21T06:10:00.000-08:00

hey . i am back.
well current me. MIA-ing everyday.
i am not surviving.
i aint doing well enough.
i am having problems.
and i am struggling.
how long can i hang on.
i wonder.

wish me luck.

2010-01-17T06:59:00.000-08:00

18/01/2009.
tmr is the day.
nothing special abt this day.
but just everythings gonna be new.

wish me luck seriosuly.
i am not anticipating actually.
but well. i have to be.
i need to get use.
and everything...

1 week not meeting friends.
i missed them seriously.
i hope to see you guys soon k.

gdbyes.

2010-01-14T00:03:00.000-08:00

well. results out.
officially on monday.
it was far below my expectation.

next on.
i dont know how to describe this.
but just things happened in this week.
and its bad.
i am not doing real fine.

i am nowhere currently.
in the middle of the ocean.

gdbyes.

2010-01-09T04:41:00.000-08:00

todayy. pathetic. hahas.
went mco.
and went ngee ann poly alone .
but the journey was quite fast.
2.30pm i reached.
tour around. for more than half an hr.
then went home.

the uncertain me. in a lost state.
hoe much time do i left.

all the best guys.

2010-01-07T05:18:00.000-08:00

back back from 2e1 chalett!

i will make this short.
well. okay la. not bad. saw friends!
chats and played and slept. hahas.
bbq-ed food. but cant eat much.
its okay.

these days. things werent going that fine.
i am still in the middle of nowhere.
11th of jan guys. all the best.

see you guys soon.

what abt tmr? ah.

2009-12-25T23:24:00.000-08:00

HEY GUYS.
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE!

well.
wanna know how i spent my christmas eve?
in MSIA. in car.
turning one round around THE ZON.
watched lightnings.
no carparks.
and home-ed.

somethings happened.
things aren't going so well.

but currently better.

not gonna post till next year.
bye guys.
enjoy the rest of your holidays!

2009-12-24T03:13:00.000-08:00

BACK TO MSIA!
like after all the chalet/ bbq / camp.

Zixin's chalet. COOL.
we succeed in giving her a SURPRISE.
birthday surprise. hahas.
had fun with all of them.

Next morning. we left to wgs for amazing race!
well. ran about the whole school.
though we have nothing to win. LOL
chats after played.
and left to cwp for ljs!
ate and went home.
packed abit of stuffs and slept.
for 2 hours?
yea. and went back school.
for the graduation night ceremony.
seriously.
THANKS AWGSCO for the show being put up.
FANTASTIC i can say.
well. after that.
talks. and yea. understands.
gotta do something agaiin.
but i needa fork out some time.

slept in AVA room.
woke up at 6am.
brushed up. breakfast.
combined with them.
break camp.
met daryl and derek in cwp.
chats and i went home .
showered.
parents came.
help them with their work.
slept for whole aft and
i reached MSIA. in out of sudden? LOLS.
PIANO practise.
kena scolded. and talking with my teacher .
ponders. tears. undecided.
THINK. and proceed.

now a day awake.
just submitted.
a try .

tell me how.

2009-12-20T22:20:00.000-08:00

3d2n chalet ended.
tired tired.
did stuffs like watching videos.
bbq. chats. mahjongs. games. wild wild wet.
yea. i enjoyed it actually.
though i fork out like some amount of the $$!
thr's still like things happen.
but nvm. its overr.

then mco BBQ.
talked eat. and slept in tent.
dint went for night cycling.
and went home next day in the morning.
back to msia.
for the edu fair.
and home-ed.
slept for the aft. woke
and back to sg.

another BBQ, later.
i am stuck with BBQ. hahas
last day of it.

off to go. byes.

2009-12-11T06:05:00.000-08:00

Cool.

Woke up at arnd 9am.
and bathe, prepared and went to leisure mall.
meet dearest friends.
nice day with them.
chatted and movie-ed.
the movie was fine. normal.
but the movie qualitty was SUPER OMG.
as its only RM6. so no choice. haha.

after movie, home-ed.
thats all.
but its not boring day.
girlfriends day :)

and now.
i am pissed.

2009-12-10T06:54:00.000-08:00

Now.
braces like fully up finally.
and i am so lazyyy to talk now.
it was like something tying your teeth=x
no more hard stuffs for me to eat.
i gonna be on diet!
hahas.

and and
what wrongs with this keyboard?
@ = " / # = ?
like opposite.
its so difficult for typing.
OH MY GODNESS~

2009-11-30T01:42:00.001-08:00

hey guys.
my schedules currenly being cleared!
performances over.
everything's been fine.

yesterday was a really dcision making day.
almost teared for few times.
ponder it at night till 3am i guess.
and yea. decided.
and proceeding over it.
form's been filles as well.
its gonna be brand new for me.
i just need some luck .

now. like super slacking at home this few days.
watch tv shows / eat / sleep / help my mum for work.
thats all.
ask me out if you want! haha

see you guys.

2009-11-19T20:48:00.000-08:00

i am back at msia.
for my prom shoe and stuffs.

sadly.
my friends all out to sg!
OMG. for mask.
and i cant go for it.
i wanna go man!
NVM.

gonna be out later.
in the aft.
to jusco and pelangi.
hopefully able to find somethings.
i dun wanna waste my day today.
its boring from morning till now.

but seriously wanna thanks them for helping me
to search for mask yea.
THANKS.
i am just stuck here.

bye guys.

2009-11-17T17:24:00.001-08:00

BACK.
O level's offcially ended for me.
well.
i've no idea how did i fair for this whole exam.
some subjects were just badly done i guess?
whatever.
it was over.
idk. i should just wait & see...

now?
performance / concerts
busying for practices.

class bbq on monday.
quite alot of ppl attended.
good planning i could say.
though thr's some disappointment in the end.

allrights. thats all i guess.

2009-09-19T03:14:00.000-07:00

oh ya.
back back.

prelims not yet ended!
oh my. 1 more paper on tues.
chem chem chem.

i wonder how was every paper that i did. nvm.
outcome will be known by thurs i guess.i wonder.

oh ya, derek alr in UK.
all the best for him and congrats!

books was everyday in life recently.

how long can i stay on,

haha. gonna miss him.
take care.

bye guys.

2009-07-19T01:56:00.000-07:00

oh well.
1 weekk overr.

normal schooling days.
with intensive periods just like the pastt.
library for 2 days til 9pm.
nothing muchh.

hmms,
just wanna say
DEARS, cheer upp.
seems like almost all of them are so down this few days.
i cant do anything,
but i will give all of you my support.
take care LOADS.

lastly,
Happy Birthday DEREK!

i just realise
i am still
down there.

2009-07-12T00:03:00.000-07:00

I am backk agaiin? hahaa.

homeworks finally completed.
left CHEMISTRY. sill 3.
and lesson is the 1st period. OMG.
seriously dont know how to start.

this week nothing special.
i only know school sessions were draining.
but i am still not motivated yet.
i was just slacking still.

dpa? oh my. dare not think.

Lastly, i fall down yst! was like cripple agaiin.
the same way. -_-!
bleeding away.

TC!

2009-07-08T05:46:00.000-07:00

day started.
physics spa was allright.
biology 4 periods todayy.
which drained 40% brain cells.
recess, look for shanghai buddy.
MISS them.
they're now probably reaching shanghai.
unable to send them off.
maths & a maths followed.
e maths test.
everything was numerical values
even till after school.

home-ed.
it wasnt a fine day..

drop of tears

2009-07-04T23:35:00.000-07:00

thursday.

highlights was the chinese oral.
and badly done i think?
totally out of topic.
and i only understand the Q after i left.
=_=
went to amk.
not regretted going it! happy=)
i bought present for shanghai buddy.
and i found a couple now.woohoo.
elated! haha.

friday.

bad starting.
woke late.
bag broken on the way.
missed bus.
thermometer drop.
but i saw SHANGHAI BUDDY!.
and wonderful performance :)
miss them.
skip eng and pe. great.
lessons continues after recess.
chem text MIA!
maths test following.
bad day.

sorry for atitude.
thanks for concern.
i was fine while doing puzzling.
my day was back.
thanks alot !

sorry~

2009-06-29T07:02:00.000-07:00

SCHOOL REOPENS
Wasted 1 hr in the whole morning.
doing nothing.

Lessons started.
followed by tired.
Coach lessons till 4pm.

Headed to cwp.
nobody want kfc = no dinner
Guess what? board on 950
and REACH my spore home.
hahas. nearly a surprise.

i MISS holidays.

blogskin

2009-06-29T06:49:00.000-07:00

Thursday

Parents fetch daryl & yuxuan over to ivy lee's hse.
Yes, we are heading to derek's hse later on.
watch "见鬼", and its so yucks.
Reach derek's hse arnd noon.
Cool, it was cool~ !
I've nv been to such a big hse bfor!
hahas.
Ate spaghetti. delicious i can say!
thanks.
3 movies for the day
(the children/haunting in connecticut)
Chats + TV.
yeaps, i enjoyed it.
Squezzing in the bed with 3 other friends!
pictures = memories :)

Friday

Woke up early and left earlyy.
thought lesson was 8.15am.
Guess what worng info! its starts at 10am.
Well, i don't blame anyone. hahas.
after school, rushed home.
piano lesson past and
everything begins upside down
for the day =(

Weekend

MCO & family days.

2009-06-23T06:35:00.000-07:00

Oh yea. Back to msia.
At first decided to stay at spore whole week.
but, came back better!i love the feel~ haha.

Allright. seems to be slacking today.
then shop for buddy's present.
Nah, how am i gg to contact her?
found nothing precisely.
other days perhaps.

Oh ya, thanks YUXUAN for treating me
chicken wing!
great. and yea, thanks alot alot.
thanks dayryl for the present too!

I went back msia today.
And guess what?
i just hurt myself at the sharp side of drawer.
Its like OUCHHHHHHH!
supper painn.
i thought its just minor injury.
but unexpectedly it hurts my bone.
now standing sitting bcome a problem!
seriously, it HURTS.
but not gg for doctor.
i am like a cripple now really =/
unbearable pain!
ah.

Anw, for dsa.
everything seems to be rushing.
i have no idea at all.
Aj its a no already i guess.
perhaps other jc? or maybe none at all.
depends.

off to go.
holidays ending.
i miss classmates!

2009-06-14T21:21:00.000-07:00

Mco retreat over.

yes, i went for 3 days.
Friday after school,
She pissed me off ,
super unhappy with all her actions,
but she dosent seems to care. rah nvm.

Mrt-ed thr with jasmine, debbie they all.
1 hr longg, and slack when reached thr.
kind of bored? the place was cool,
half chalet half camp.
thr's girl's dom and boy's dom and kitchen and hall.

All the meals are delicious!
Played monopoly & card games
& few rounds of mahjong during free time.
I went for the Syco concert too.
Marvellous. haha.

Guess during the three days,
everyhting was just eat, sleep, play.
HAHA.

Went home on sunday. schooling on mon!
Left the place at 10.00pm,
12 reach home.
Super tiring.
Though not many ppl went, but i enjoyed alot!
Thanks everyone!.

2009-06-14T08:54:00.000-07:00

update update.
wanna change blogskin so badly.!

oks yea.
anyway.

i wanna THANKS my dear YUXUAN here.
THANKS ALOT ! LOVES~
something just reminded me of her greatest act!
she was just SUPER 伟大！
ok, i shan't type out what happen to my uni, its so embarrassing,
though its like so longg ago, but it just came to my mind out of sudden.
really dont know how to describe the feeling , but was just super touched =)
oh ya, thanks for CINNY's jacket too!
ok, and thanks EVERYBODY's concern for the day!

nvm, its over!

2009-06-02T07:03:00.000-07:00

Searched for new blogskins for 3 hours,
but found none. =_=

Mother tougue intensive was offcially over.
Actually it wasnt really that long too,
in fact it passed MUCH FASTER than i expected.
I enjoyed the 2 weeks ALOT ALOT.
AND I MISSED IT SO MUCH!
thanks Mr toh for the tidbits too!

Monday,well.
Paper 1 compo down i think?
Paper 2 worst.
Idk.
I wasnt really nervous, but worried.
There wasnt sign of release after the paper.
hmm. just pray hard for me.

Starting june booster programme todayy.
Arnd 3 hrs of a maths.
Kind of tiring, abit loss track with other subjects,
cos everything was chinese all the while.
Tmr biology lesson.

idk what to do, but wanted to help.
i am l-o-s-s.
how i wish i could do something.

2009-05-14T08:38:00.000-07:00

Back to school.

Wasnt expected to be facing the attack that early.
and it was only 8.15am.
I got back the papers, and teared.

I tried to control, but it does not allow me to stop.
And it lasted for 1hr ++
I was demoralised once again.
Yea, the subject was chinese.
I failed paper 1.
just nice passing for the listening compre & P2.

Whats going on, not much effort?
i was like facing the o lvl on 1st of june,
enugh time?
the short short two weeks,
from a BIG C6 to an A?
not even saying 1 or 2.
Possible? It was a totally Question mark (?) for me.

rest of day wasnt any better either.
18days, seems to be just a blink and it reached.

I am afraid.

2009-05-08T08:01:00.000-07:00

oOHS!
headache, HEADache, HEADACHE!

whats going on. years after & i am back.
Lost with eveyrhting on net.

Mid -Year was just like a blink, last paper on tues.
Actually it was like weeks.
Shall not talk detaily for papers.
It drained off 3 quarter of my energy.
left 1 quarter, which is the headache now. rah.

I pushed through this week, and it seems so unbelievable.
the rest coming out is more unbelievable.
Wish me luck, i wonder.
Would i stay on and persevere till the end of eveyrhting to be out.

Ah, sounds demoralising.
but shall not be!
No MCO tmr? SUPER SAD.
its like years since i went.

Off to go.

WGSCO

2009-04-13T07:19:00.000-07:00

yesh. this is just few minutes i could spare.
aha.

8 more days to syf.
complicated lifestyle this few weeks.
busy, BusY and BUSY!
PUSh me on, i need strength serously.

WGSCO, whether to be back with
tears filled with happiness ; or tears of sadness found,
its all depends on us!

C'mon, lets do our best!
Jiayou~

2009-04-02T08:19:00.000-07:00

Let me warn you 1st, its a LONG LONG POST!

BACK to topic, TODAY!
Early in the morning, news was being spread,
we were not selected for cheer!
Oh my, it was a disappoint one, and a irritated news.
Seems like the 2+ hours spent for practising was
gone with these few words.

Then, mass run started and it was 2 rounds for us too!
Even tough we are having 2.4km run later.
Was pissed by it, but ya, ran through still.

M.t lesson followed by.
Mr toh talked to us, abit of advice.
Was kind of guilty,
and i guess he was disappointed somehow?
SORRY!will try my best to complete your homework.
oOps.

Pe lessons then. 2.4km run. Whole class run together.
WOW, its the 1st time running with so many people.
The criteria was: not to fail or
timing can't be worst than last time.
Guess what??
My timing was worst than last time by 1 sec!!???!
Previous:12.50 Latest: 12.51
After the tiring 6 rounds , i have to run 1 more ROUND!
My leg was so numb, no strength seriuosly.
If i need to re-run the 2.4km again,
i can't deny i may killed myself! Hmph.

AGAin, 1 last chance by mr billy for our cheers.
And, we were selected! YEA, i was fine again, haha.
Though was already pissed for whole morning!:)A
te at canteen, and chit-chatted.
Lessons continued and everything was fine!

After school, time for M.t oral.
Nervous of cos. Especially the convo topic.
Not been doing well all along.
And, i am the first, bcos of the index no.
Reading aloud was fine, but...
convo topic was Badly Done. =(
I knew it myself even if teacher nv mentioned it to me.
I was demoralised, and cried over it.
seriously, i am very sad, though its only a few minutes cry.
Nvm, its over too.

Went to CO, and thanks for the entertainment,
especially penguin! haha.
A place where nv fails to cheers me up.
Off to research for weather project,
with khalil, jasmine, cinny & Ms Chee.
Thanks for the treat! Ms chee!
We took long long time to serach the blocks they were in.
Followed them, and listened.
It was interesting and we followed it till the end of it!
Back home at 10pm.

I LOVE EGG TARTS!

2009-04-02T08:18:00.000-07:00

My godness.
Let me say abt yesterday's BIO SPA experiment first.
Yea, its was tedious indeed.
Was actually careless for not putting sulfur dioxide to solution!
If not everything would be fine. rahh.
Nvm, and ended the experiment with rush and no time to check.
ANW, its over! 2 more skill 2 SPA EXPERIMENT.

After that, went to dnt room for sports cheer,
we were like half selected.
Trained for the cheer in classrooms, many people at first.
And, abt 1.5 hours pass, left the dancers and few classmates only.
But we continues and we made it finally
@ instant of 5.29pm. =)

2009-03-26T07:02:00.000-07:00

Morning lessons was "great".
Mass Run 3 rounds, PE training for Napfa stations !
And, i am now DOWN with MUSCLE ACHES.
Wondering how i am going to have napfa test tmr.
Good Luck.
M.t lessons, ah, i am guilty.
For not passing up mr toh's hw.
So sorry, i wll try to complete it by this weekend.

After recess,
lessons was normal ,
and yea, nth special.
But lessons were passed by with headaches!
Co after lessons,practised of cos.
Yes, Justina, Yanting AND Zixin were back!
Kind of happy to see them =)

Off to dinner after co, and library
and completed 2 of my homeworks.
Wonderful, i am starting to get use the "library" life.
AHA. Finally, i can settle down in library.

Napfa test tmr, GOOD LUCK FOR ME!
i jsut simply wanna a gold award. haha.

Lastly, THANKS for the BDAE present!
From Joan and Jiale, my daughters! =)

come to think of it, 4 of mydaughters gave me BDAE present!
Of cos still including: angela, shini, geraldine, parents and My sister!

2009-03-24T06:55:00.000-07:00

Yes, 22 /03 was my birthday!
You may still wish me ifyou have not do it!
haha

Thanks for those who had wished me verbally, text masseges and
even sang songs for me at 12am!
Guess who are they, MALAYSIANS! =)

Thanks man,it was such a great honour to get everybody in the 170 to look at us singing the BDAE song. hahas.

Anw, action speaks louder than words! ~Just kidding.
Its alreayd over anyway. And i proud to say that,
I can watch NC 16 movies. Like,finally! =)

Thanks for presents, wishes, everything!

2009-02-23T06:12:00.001-08:00

A new Monday of a week.
Yea, and it started bad,
infact, it become worse later on..

Just completed common test and No comments.

Was actually prepared to face all the consequences
and the "yucks" result.
Early in the morning, the headache is killing me.
I have the wish to keep silence for whole day,
not having the feeling to "talk".
Sorry for the moodless expression,
the neglected answers.
It spoils my day seriously.
Everything is worse than my expectation.

I asked myself, is that the effort i put in?
I couldnt even believe what i have gotten for some of the subjects.
But, it was still the fact > DONE BY ME.
The whole say lessons was almost all about
Results, Results & RESULTS.
truly demoralising.
Unexpectedly, tears scroll down at the end of bio lessons.
It was time for me for another serious thinking...

The last lessons, LCD.
It talks about resilience.
Through enough, i guess.
Everywhere of me is lack of resilience.
Seconds, Minutes, Weeks, Months passed by,
will i continues to persevere?

Ivy Eng will soon be going into COMA...

2009-01-21T05:25:00.000-08:00

The last post was just probably a fake one.
I have no time to post about that much.
Have not online'ed for weeks and weeks.

Totally, why is my timetable full?
its sounds crazy to me.
Revision for o's have not started yet,
syf intensive have not started yet too.
I am only having the choice lessons after school everyday,
and thr's already tons of hw for me to complete.

Ah, i am wondering, how will this year pass,
and how am i gonna take everything.
Yea, god bless i hope.

I have no motivation at all,
none, for the o levels that i am gonna face it.
though have the feel to complete the hw's for eveyrday,
but it gaves me a feel that i am doing all these aimlessly.
no goal, no decision, nothing...

2009-01-04T07:02:00.000-08:00

Everything will be updated here tmr.
~WGSCO camp
~MCO concert
~NEW YEAR 2009
~FIRST schooling day

its late now, and i have to get some slp!

AND,i wanna mention

I AM LOST~,
TOTALLY & SERIOUSLY.
not knwing what to do, or even how to bring it out.
isit a yes or no for me, i have no idea at all!
seems to be facing the 4 walls and i gonna bang into it soon.

AH`

2008-12-06T06:19:00.000-08:00

Back blogging.

Everyday life process was the same.
Woke up early reach home evening.
And, i am supper tiredd !
wanna have more slp but cant =(

Currently having serious flu,
its flu, flu, and FLU!
oh my, super waste tissue, hahas.

OKs, recently got quite number of ppl taking part
in international competition,
good luck for them!
i will try to support you if i can! :)

Missing lots of stuffs recently,
their basketball and lion practice.
Basketball was really couldnt make it on fri
as thr is piano lesson.
Sat was disapproval from my parents,
hah, wonder when can i join back, LOL.

Lion practice again tmr,
how i wish i could go,
missed LOTS of lion practice,
bcos of the tuition on sunday,
Sorry!
what can i do?
will i success?

Thats all,
a random post indeed.

2008-12-04T06:15:00.000-08:00

Lazy to elaborate one by one day.

But currently my december holidays are gone too!
Full with programmes,
its tired, but i'm looking forward for it!

Monday with practices,
tuesday with meeting,
wed painting banner,
thurs - NIL!
friday meeting!

I have no time to complete my holiday hw's!
And i have to do to immigration too,
to settle my pass thingy.
Time not enough for me! i need 30 hours a day!

tmr going out for rehearsal,
see you!

2008-11-30T05:09:00.000-08:00

Oks.
I am lazy to post about past few days.
Everything was just as normal,
nothing special.

Well,
but recently, i do feel
Weird.
nth to be describe, its just the word,
"WEIRD".

Seems to be i am outdated?
I know nothing?
or even, its not convenient for me to know it.
So i shoo myself away most of the time.
Although i wanted to know what was it.
But that was a respect to people.

Anyway, i was not saying about any particular thing,
but just the feeling i had.
But i hope if thr;s anything, i will be inform?
i am so out of track from you guys,
not knowing what to do,
or to talk to you guys,
why? no courage.
have i did something wrong agaiin?
or issit the fault that i made last time
and i couldnt do/ know anything?

its just a simply guessing from me,
dont take it to heart,
of not you may stay away from this post perhaps.

2008-11-26T06:27:00.001-08:00

Finally, its today.

At first was not going out to spore,
but no choice, have to complete things.
Went out with my sister together.

Meet hsia zhen at 12pm and we started our seraching and
start working. Bought stuffs from popular and we went mac.
We only bpught french fries and drinks and we stayed thr
for 3 hours. Luckily thr was no workers chasing us.
haha.

Thanks jasmine for the info,
finish half of the first pg and we decided to take home
and complete everything.
After packing, wow, the table was like,
OOPS! both of us were lost.
Nth could cure the table except for eraser.
We were like crazy erasing the wordings on the table,
but it took us a long time,
still we couldnt clear everything.
We decided to leave,
leaving everything just like that.
The contrast was so obvious,
from the other table.
hope mac dosent have cctv?
haha.

It was and interesting day.
Co tmr.

2008-11-26T05:59:00.000-08:00

Next next,
monday,
meet with jas and BC to iscuss abt the scheule.
Then meet cinny an we went off to tuolin practice.
Finally, i attend it again!

Saw the familiar faces finally =)
An i am super duper outated currently.
Pls upate me if you can! thanks.

The practice ended at about 10 ++pm.
Chit chatted downstairs while waiting for some others to come down.
Listen quietly, i became so shut down suddenly, thanks for telling me, i hope its not the end for me yet.

Went back home with gerald, junwei, and huifang.
Thanks gerald for sending me home and
helping me to take my instrument!
THANKS!~

Tuesday,
co practice started at 2pm.
Combine, i am back.
Yes, and thr was new instru which make me so excited!
I love it and we practice set piece , syf song and some small pieces
which are needed for performances.
Ended at 5pm and waited for my mum to fetch me and cinny back home.

It wakes me up,
a loud "gong".
causing me to stay up till 3am that day.

Why? i couldnt answer myself either.
Seems to be totally sleeping without caring,
now i knew the feeling of regret and sorry,
behaving like living in a diff. world.
everything seems so wrong there,
the totally diff me.

Thanks for the reminder,
its time for me to wake up and learn,
i hope i am not late,
though its really really late now...

2008-11-26T05:53:00.000-08:00

Yes, i am back back back!
but back by few ays ago.
Its just taht i never post.

the whole trip was FUN!
Everything was better than i expected.
The ays we spent together was memorable,
lots of pictures was taken too!
Shall post some here next time!

But, i am too lazy to list out everyday,
so here will only have the conclusion,
haha.
Of course, there's also some unplesant things happen,
but i will take it as an experience, yes.

Coulnt explain any further for this trip,
presents i only bought for some ppl,
buget!
sorry for those if i never bought for you!

wanna know the details?
look for me and i share with you!

2008-11-04T07:31:00.000-08:00

Yes, last post before i leave here allright?

Cos tmr i have no time to post!

I shall say,
I am finally fine now!
Sick for the few days,
truly unbearable!
Yes, and thanks for the concern guys!

Kinda busy this few days,
and tired too~
and booster programme has finally ended..
Today i will have my wonderful night,
till a perfect timing which i want to wake up!
hahaha, great isnt it?

Setting off tmr ,
yes, its a long tripp,
and i wondering how would it be??
not much expectation seriously,
but hope to be a fun and knowlegeable one!

Be back here soon,
dun miss me!
=)

2008-10-30T05:12:00.001-07:00

A quick quick postt.

Everything repeated just like yesterday,
not much difference.
And, i really fall sick!
everything apporaches me today!
fever, headache! but a slight one.
OH my !
what an unsuitable timming it is!

And, i guess i wont be able to send farah and rafizah off tmr,
hereby wish them BON VOYAGE!
gotta rush back home tmr, no basketball too :(
Having blood test probably on saturday,
so might be late,
or maybe never attend?
depends on my health,
but i wish to go the last time bfor my trip!

Let me get well soon, i need some strength!!
=(

2008-10-29T05:52:00.000-07:00

Longg Longg DAY.

I am feeling unwell, with feverish head.
Felt fine after taking the medicine frm gel!
Thanks.
Continued our lessons, but ms chee was late.
Lessons ended at 11.30pm.
Saw angela and chatted with her, thr comes shini.
Thanks choon hup for the help,
its my lunch anyway.
Rush for my dental appt, and it lasted for 2 hrs .
Supper Long, and currently my mouth is still so numb.
Back to co room, saw zixin! =)
Everything ended at 5.00pm.

Ate dinner with jasmine and cinny.
I am struggling down thr.
After dinner,
i was only angry at first.
And, it irritates me, until i am
SUPER PISSED OFF,
VERY VERY PISSED OFF!!!!
wants to know? ask me personally then.
This is the first time, i am so PISSED!
Anw, thanks cinny! :)

Went home,and i hope i will have a beta day tmr.

2008-10-26T07:48:00.000-07:00

Hmm, i just viewed ms lim's blog.
Yup, she was a Very Very good teacher indeed.
And, i wish her all the best for her following years.
We loves you.

Okok, lets start frm friday.
Booster Programme in the morning.
Stock check in the afternoon.
Evyerything was fine!
Then, went woodlands centre with jasmine.
We walk here and thr trying to search,
and yea she found something!=)

Back to cwp, meet my sister
and we went off to mcc for my 1st basketball game!
Indeed, as expected,
it was fun, Fun, FUN!
Marvellous i should say!~
And, thanks for the encouragement for all!
But, sadly, couldnt join them on sat.
Other fri's i couldnt attend too =(
i try.

Next day mco, as usual.
More practices is coming up!
Went for lion and thnks yik hang for accompanying !
Went home =)

Monday deepavali`

2008-10-23T07:21:00.000-07:00

Todayy.

The following is the painess degree.

1. When sit down, i felt O-u-c-h!

2. When writing, i felt O-u-c-H!!

3. When one of my side hitted the walls,
i felt O-U-c-H!!!

4. When i slightly turn my head,
i felt O-U-C-H!!!!

That last for the whole day till now, pretty good yea?

Today was dedicated the last day of school.
And lessons were all slacking.
Except for the last few periods.
Form teacher came in and gave us a longg speech.
It was a SADD NEWS anyway.
And i teared bcause of it. =(

Collected report books,
and booster programme started.
Physics and Geog.
Ends at 2.30pm.

Though holiday "started",
but booster programme continues.
Will be gg to school tmr.

Thats all for todayy.

2008-10-22T04:24:00.000-07:00

At last, this week.
Having literacy course on mon and tues.
First day was kinda boring?
its like only learn to play monopoly,
but not much on business.
Tues was better but was not that good too.
Learning how to manage our finance.
And we played games too.

Oh ya, having booster programme.
Some sort of intensive? for o's.
12.30 - 2.30pm.
Yes, we gonna buck up.
Other sessions, 8.30 - 12.30pm
during holidays till 4 nov.
Wow, superr long.
But, for the sake of o's. haha.

Today, SEP.
Sports educational programme.
I choosen in-line skating.
Yes, it was fun, i truly agress.
But, i fall down quite numbers of time.
Having aches at my leg currently.
I wonder how's the feel tmr.
Watch movie after staying in co room for few hours.
Catch it with zx, wh, sis, jas , cinny and sf.
"Connected" was a nice show indeed.

We are separated after that.
went home individually.

A nice day too!
fill with joy =)

2008-10-22T04:17:00.000-07:00

It was time for saturday!
MCO day!

I was punctual, and thr was new instructor.
Not bad, she is quite paient.
And, the sectional we are having like only
less then 10 ppl, can you imagine?

Went for combine, wh came.
But the whole group was still seems so small.
Haha. Yes, i love comebine!=)
Off to beside marsiling and had our lunch there.
Fcc to practise our lion.
And, i din even realise i am rushing the beats.
oOps.
Home, cant play basketball as dad is attending a dinner tonight.
We got to rush home!

Thats all, a wonderful saturday always.^

2008-10-22T04:06:00.000-07:00

Yes, Yes.

kind of missing lots of stuffs.
haha.
Let me turn back the time.

last wed, went to vivo city.
with few malaysians to buy present for yx.
And, we manage to bought astroboy for her!
Yea, and we ate at the foodcourt.
Farah and ian join us after that.
Then we went to the uppest level,
have fun in the outdoor with them!
My sis join us after that.
Went home around 7pm.
I enjoy the day, promotion DAY!
Thanks for the day =)
Truly enjoys!

Thurs and Fri were normal sch lessons.
As usual, some lessons slack, some doing revisions.

2008-10-14T19:20:00.000-07:00

Agaiin,
i am back here.
my eyes were half swollen.
oh!

Couldnt elaborate much,
jut here to pass my wishes to those who are taking o levels,
Good Luck!

Will not update that soon,
till i am perfectly back to normal.
if not this will be a sad post again.

Take care friends.

`couldnt imagine it
i am 1 of the 5. =((

2008-10-07T03:09:00.000-07:00

LaST dated: 15september.

perhaps, my strong determination ask me not to use computer till exams ended.
and yea, i really never on it.
is this something to happy abt? =_=

Exam ended today,
and i am having serious headaches,
during last few days.
It kills me, and i dosent seem to be doing well too.
no, i shan't mention anyting about my exams.

Let me be empty minded for 1 day,
without thinking any of it.
heard all those "news" at the end of the exam,
and this truly make my heart "sinks".
every truth will be out by thursday i guess.
I need to pray tmr, for the whole day.
trying to exaggarate it,
but its not funny at all.

Many things need to be completed after exams,
was like super busy.
Any suggestions to entertain me,
somehow i dont feel the mood right,
upsided mood.
Maybe i need some assurance?
to assure me, a little small comfort will do.

Anw, i dont really feel the pressure out of my body,
the stress is still pulling me.
Awaiting,
and i hope i could still hold on to it.

i dont wish it to be a sad ending...
for this yearr.

sorry, i know this is a =( post.

2008-09-15T04:39:00.000-07:00

A quick post first bfor i start to plan.

Firstly,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASMINE SOO!

p.s must treasure my photo with care hors!

Ok, lessons was allright today.
Same, but rushing for physics as we have not finish the syllabus for EOY.
9 more days, and maths was kind of intensive?
rush rush rush. Others were kind of intense too,
but better than MATHS.

Was like maths crazy, till my headache to be out slightly.
Felt better after school had EL remedial till 3.45pm.
Celebrated birthday for jasmine,
wow, she got lots of present. Congrats! haha.
And one of the present actually gt my "that" photo inside.
which i seriously dun want ppl to get hold of it.
but nvm. just kind of not happy with it without my permission.

Off to cwp.
Thanks zikai for treating me:)
Ate and went home,
gonna push myself into studies laterrr.

my mind now could only think of this number
"9 " OH MY! i am shouting.

2008-09-08T06:19:00.000-07:00

Yes, i am back.
without any ideas how long i've been disappeared from here.

Oh well, lets see.
Coulnt really rmb much.
But, things aren't going very well for past 2 weeks.
At least, it was cleared by now, i guess.

Althought last week was holiday,
but i'm in spore everyday, for remedials and cca.
great, isint it? it is not holiday, rite?
Missed MCO in saturday.
Of cos, the lessons were for our own good,
rushing for EOY chapters.

Hadn't been studying much for last week.
Alot of time wasted. and EOY is in 19days.
Counting down,
but it dosent create any "push" actions for me.
Hw's not done.
And back to school, and 2nd period chem test!
Oh my, again the history repeating itself.
lessons on and brain cells damage for last 5 periods of BOTH MATHS.

A maths test tmr,
Bio spa exam tmr.
A maths test again on wednesday.
Physics test on thursday.
LOTS more coming up..

2008-08-26T05:41:00.000-07:00

Its one week since i posted.
Finish the spa exams and gotten back reuslts.

I couldnt really rmb-ed what happen last week.
as for saturday,thr's CIP and after that,
i went to Yuxuan's hse to celebrate her sister's BDAE.
Reached thr and it was around afternoon,
Chat and ate, and it was funny for those jokes.
but i dont really seems to be joining into the conversation.
Nvm, and went off at 5pm.

Sunday, with 3 tuitions once agaiin.
same same same.

Monday,
normal as well.
results yea, soemhow i am not statisfy with it,
but, yea its a fact now. ='(

TODAY,
happy birthday qingru!
congrats to tan bo!
jiayou for cello bass!

get to know the overall for english,
and i know till now i couldnt accept the fact.
and received "some" news from jasmine.
Performance during assembly.
English remedial after school,
and went to cca.
Combined, celebrated teacher's day.
realised i lost something important!
oh my, how careless am i??
pray hard for me,pls.
Went off and ate with cinny.
Thanks for the help today!

I LOSE MY VOICE.
And, EL ORAL TMR.

`confuse feeling for now.
` seeing , thinking , everything.
`emotional feeling is soon back.

2008-08-20T02:49:00.001-07:00

Two more spa papers to go..

Firstly, wanna THANKS Beekian for rescuing me!
Thanks, simply love her~

Today, mass run and followed by emaths test.
short test become assignment.
had english and recess.
Chinese lessos went to library,
sort of shopping for books?
2 periods ended and amaths.
test pp is back.
and then, the chem spa exam.
was kind of nervous went doing it,
but still allright.
Got back chem paper last period,
and the results of cos were unstatisfying.
get to know the position for chem in cls too,
guess what,
my name is counted from last.
super demoralising ='(
nvm. slacked after sch, ate
and went home.

2008-08-18T03:01:00.000-07:00

BAck, and thr were LOTS of mail for me to clear.

LAst week, having common test.
ah, forget abt it,
i actually teared after the physics paper =(
some papers are truly disappointing job done.
But ,i received chocolate from wenhui on friday!
Thanks!

Start of the week, and the
Last Day of common test!
Finally, bio pp ended.
Mugg for hours for this particular paper.
Hope nothing goes wrong.

Anw, was feeling unwell todayy.
had pe, was tiring!
up and down of staircase for 6 times.
recess, and lessons continued.
Not in the mood of study,
but still of cos lessons ended.

CIP after school,
distributing flyers, more on this saturday.
Whole block up down,
once again my leg aches!
BAck to school, and home-ed.

2 more 0 lvl Spa exams to go this week :(

2008-08-18T02:05:00.000-07:00

Was tagged by sokling, yuxuan, jasmine soo, cinny and shini and sarah!

1. The person who tag you is .
Sokling! Yuxuan! Jasmine Soo! Cinny! Shini! AND Sarah!

2. Your relationship with him/her is .
Yuxuan, jasmine soo, cinny > beloved classmates =)
Shini > my stead:)
Sarah > beloved junior :]

3. Your impression for him/her .
ALL very GOOD!

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you .
All cheers me up bfor! :)

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you .
loves~ ? haha

6. If he/she become your lover, you will .
All are girls,we can only be FRIENDS.

7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be .
Nope.

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will ...
make it impossible.

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be .
Not sure? hope not!

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is .
Fufill their dreams =)

11. Your overall impression of him/her is .
PERFECT!

12. How you think people around you will feel about you .
No idea =x i hope not banana, haha.

13. The characters you love of yourself are .
secret~

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are .
secret~

15. The most ideal person you want to be is .
ME.

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them .
Thanks alot! they are always in my heart =)

17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you
Pass to people with blogs only
1.Yuxuan
2.Sokling
3.Jasmine Soo
4.Cinny
5.Ivy Lee
6.Tyy pey
7.Shini
8.Sarah
9.Angela
10.Lay Kim

18.Who is no.6 having relationship with?
(Tyy pey) i guess no?

19.Is no.9 a male or female?
(Angela) Female.

20. If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
(Shini and Laykim) impossible? unless they have same mindset.

22. What is no.2 studying about?
(sokling) sec 2's subject.

23. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
(Jasmine Soo) just chatted in class=)

24. What kind of music band does no.8 like?
(Sarah) not sure?

25.Does no.1 have any siblings?
(Yuxuan!)Yeah.

26. Will you woo no.3?
(Jasmine Soo) when i am a man? =x

27. How about no.7?
(Shini) She is mine =) haha.

28. Is no.4 single?
(Cinny) yes.

29. What is the surname of no.5?
(Ivy Lee) Lee.

30. What 's the hobby of no.10?
(lay Kim) not very sure.

31. Does no.5 and 9 get along well?
(Ivy Lee & Angela) not bad!

32. Where is no.2 studying at?
(sokling) Woodgrove secondary school.

33. Talk something casually about no.1.
(Yuxuan!)A Special girl. love by me, haha.

34. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?
(Sarah)yea, soon. haha.

35. Where does no.9 live at?
(Angela) Near woodlands stadium.

36. What colour does no.4 like?
(cinny) Random for her? either blue or orange?

37. Are no.5 and 1 best friend?
(Ivy Lee & Yuxuan!) YES, very good friend.

38. Does no.1 have any pets?
(Yuxuan!) I don't think so.

39. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
(Shini) yea , to me :)

40. What is no. 10 doing now?
(lay Kim) studying for n-levels i suppose. JIAYOU!

2008-08-13T02:07:00.000-07:00

Common test week.
had english and ss yesterday.
was allright but el was abit rush.
ended and had cca,
released early!
ate and back home study.

Today, mass run =c
Teacher absent,
so studied 2 hrs for chem.
Well, chinese and chem todayy.
Chinese was fine, normal.
Having one more pp of chinese tmr again.
Then, chem follow up.
Well, the test was so demoralising!
lots of (??) all the way.
Seeing ppl doing so confidently,
oh my, saddens me.
Again tcher absent and we slacked for three periods.
Opening the textbk hoping to revised,
but my mind was all the way worrying my chemistry.
Nvm. Sch ended then.

Went to cwp to have lunch,
had a nice chat with cinny and jasmine.
HOME-ed.

Physics and geog tmr.

2008-08-11T02:27:00.000-07:00

Oh well, i am backk!
an officially study day for me.
but, i am still here. =_=

though have been touching books
for past few days, but none of the subjects
finish revising?
teach me how to wake up!

start from friday.
parade in the morning ended at 11am.
the performance was unsuccesful, sorry=x
again i contributed nothing.
off to cwp the have lunch and
went home.

saturday,
stayed at home with the word "slacked".
watch tv ,
and the day ended.

Well,
having serious headache yesterday,
totally couldnt study and just a simple recap.
wasted whole day. oh my.
but, today at least thr are some outcomes.
studied in the morning,
completed some hw's in the afternoon,
and here am i ~
gg to study at night and complete the rest of the hw's.

tmr is the start of common test, wondering
how shld i do it, wish me good luck!
and and, i need somebody to teach me !
lets hope everything turns out fine:)

2008-08-07T05:50:00.000-07:00

Allright, guess what?

Lessons for today was filled with
TEST or ESSAYS. no more others.

First lesson, E maths TEST,
Next, physics TEST.
Then, wrote chinese ESSAY.
Recess, the time to took a breath.
Following, english.
Its also a spelling TEST, but an enjoyable.
as it was groups competition, and our grp won!
the only period for resting.
Again, it's A maths TEST, but counted as practice?
Next, wrote Social Studies, doing ESSAY.
Lastly, biology, this was exceptional period too!
revising, and taught us the skill 1 &2.

After school, maths REMEDIAL.
once again, my brain seems overused.
its like so full during the remedial.
things couldnt be kept inside for long.
Nvm, went off to cca.
Miss-ed sectional, as we are having rehearsal.
Thanks sharon, bkian, seng fong to be back helping!
ended at 6pm, and we rushed for debrief.

Ate at cwp with shini and gaby.
HOME-ed.

2008-08-04T06:13:00.000-07:00

back to schooling days!
having slightly unwell yesterday,
but still manage to strive through all tuitions.

day started! and it was weekee's Bdae!
lessons and pe were on.
again lessons after recess and
5 periods of maths together. tired`

thought of gg home,
but a sudden "lion" practice.
no choice, stayed and practice till arnd 4pm.
went off with shini, jasmine and yuxuan.
bought things with shini and went back her home.
at least her hse is bigger than mine, and nicer, haha.
do the packing stuffs and chat alot with her :)
enjoyed! went home at 7.30pm.

backk, but how am i gg to start studying..
c'mon, i need a force to push me.

All the best for 4N/4T's prelims!

2008-07-30T02:15:00.001-07:00

A quick update bfor i off9.

everything was as usual yesterday,
and the day 4N/4T step down.

today,
mass run, in fact class run.
well,not very sucessful,
some sort of arguments? brought unhapiness.
lessons followed by.
stayed at cls during recess,
have maths and chinese after that.
lastly, chem spa.
today's practical was supper hard.
was very confuse, and the WORST thing.
WRONG solution taken.
that explains why the whole procedure with no reaction!
whole conclusion and observations were WRONG.
Nvm, i dont blame you, its a careless mistake anw,
even though i was angry.

Went off to library to attend maths remedial.
recap back to sec 2, 90% of i had been forgotten by me.
HOME-ed staright after remedial.

thr lefts hw's for me, ss test tmr.
byes.

2008-07-28T03:49:00.000-07:00

past few days?
usual lessons.
but, i realise..
i love bio more!
and i wish the results gg upwards too!
the lessons were interesting~

weekends over.
the day started!
lessons and pe.
the bad headache started during recess.
but i manged to strive through end of the day.
after sch, went co room.
saw beekian! thanks for the help~
had a meeting and went to vista to buy things.
reach civic which drain off my energy so muchh,
went home =)
test tmr =(

thought through, after all.
maybe i shld really let go and put down,
for the moment. i need time.
but i nv treasure it well.
guess what they said was right.
Nvm, wish me well then. haha.

2008-07-19T05:59:00.000-07:00

Updatess.
was having moodless these few days,
till now? perhaps.

thurs,
lessons was the same and
rehearsal does no do well.
stayed back for awhile.
having some small discussions.
and the moment i left them,
emotionally breakdown.
just nice i shld say.

friday, wasnt better either.
in fact, totally bad.
had bio test was ok.
chem test 90% was guessing.
what shld i do?
went to co room,
done nothing, mind was in a whirl.
went off to watch rehearsal.
then ate and stay by the river for awhile.
the breeze which cools me.
i thought another breakdown was gg to happen,
but luckily thr wasnt.
thanks those who tried to cheer me up.

todayy,
speech day.
and i am speechless.
at least the mood was better than previous.
but lost something.
went off to mco and back home after that.
again the moodless was backk.

2008-07-16T05:11:00.000-07:00

morning,
class run,
much faster than what we expecxted,
as we only ran one round.
lessons as per normal.
last three periods,
chem spa,
which hurt my hand :x

after school,
meeting outside co room with teachers.
and talked about results.
yup, which mine was, oh my!
i cant afford to fail any subjects,
if not the consequences.
i can feel the scared-ness.
but its was true enugh.
discussed till abt 4pm.
went off and went to popular,
to buy books.
back home.

what if i really couldnt make it?

2008-07-15T05:15:00.000-07:00

todayy.
the lessons ended early,
as thr was listening compre of o lvl's.
GOODLUCK!

muscle aches due to pe lessons yesterday,
and head injuries, OUCH!

Anw,
Took textbook form janet early in the morning.
THANKS :)
lessons started from ss, was like slacked.
bio spa, was doing skill 3,
its difficult! trying hardd.
chinese lessons followed.
recess, thanks yuxuan for the bread!
lastly,
3 periods of english.
Poor teacher, our cls was so noisy.
went off for assembly.

Left the school,
went to cwp to buy some food,
and finally done with the POP things.
walk around and bought presents for friends.
Went home.
Suddenly, i thought that
no more time.
september or even common test,
will approach me VERY soon.
i gonna work hard, seriously,
no time for playing.

No cca today :(
Mass run tmr :(

reahearsal this thursday :D

2008-07-14T02:12:00.000-07:00

I am back!
kind of forgotten what to update,
though thr was lots of things i could be mentioning.
a quick update, bfor i type minutes.

Well, last week.
Mr junus teaching us physics for 2 weeks.
and the lessons was interesting,
jokes around.
Of cos, same as bio lessons.
Anw, i am suddenly having more interest in bio,
the cells we have in our body, truly inspires me!
other lessons as usual. =)

And, rehearsal.
Overall, not bad!
just that the speed was not stable.
Will be having full dress rehearsal on thurs.
Anw, we are not going for the nyghco concert anymore =(
the tickets were all sold out,
reason being very simple, Sorry teacher!
A pity to missed the concert.

Friday, having meeting.
Abt fund raising and POP.
Discussed with teachers for abt 2 hours.
Meeting ended,
went off to meet sokling, tyy pey.
Went home.
Surprisingly, they beocme HEROS,
when back home together.
Nothing much after that.

Saturday,
went to mco.
realised teacher talk to jasmine for stuffs,
after hearing, its kind of demoralising.
Nvm, but was not really in the mood of practise,
for the few hours.
Bought bbt and went home,
thinking while on the way back home.
thought of some answers,
but was not really correct, i guess.

Sunday?
nothing, only full of tuitions.
ahh, thats all.

2008-07-09T03:56:00.000-07:00

one week disappear.
oh ya, sorry teacher!
we shld had done it faster.

last week,
the shanghai ppl visit our school.
interacts with them and had an enjoyable day.
but, i missed lots of lesson.
and coulnt catch up currently.

friday saturday and sunday i shall skip.
its was as per normal i shld say.

well, monday?
stayed at home
was totally slacked.
none of revisions were being done.
only those entertainment.

yesterday,
lessons on-going as usual.
and cca after school.
what i heard was
deprovement of standard for tan bo,
from seniors, i shall agree though.
hello? the urgency is not thr.
althought the performance is on july 19.
jiayou guys.

today,
no mass run and changed to class run.
2 maths test today and was simply difficult!
teacher absent for some subjects.
chinese lesson,
and chem practical.
went for xtra practice till 5pm.
went cwp to do smething and back here.

things undone,
minutes not type yet,
lazy or busy? either.
homeworks not done.
revisions not done.
anymore?
practice not done.
decision not make yet.
i guess this is more enough.

i do hope rehearsal tmr will be fine.
i need some cheers~

2008-06-30T06:45:00.000-07:00

Starting of second week.
reach school around 6.50pm.
And, i got a fast "scolding".
Asked for opinions, and gotten expected results.
ya, i was gg to be the bad person once agaiin.
Performance was cancelled, sorry.
My fault all the while.
This upsets me for almost whole morning.

Welcomed those china students and had
hours of inetraction with them.
Not bad, new frens!

Back to lessons around 12pm.
missed lots of lessons, wonder
how am i gg to catch up?
plus this kind of state i am in.
oh my.

went back co room,
done some labellings and
chattted for some childhood periods.
back home.

its another unpleasnat day :(

2008-06-30T06:15:00.000-07:00

Tagged by Koo Sokling! one & only:) AND kenny!

1.What is my full name?
Ivy Eng Hui Ni

2.Where would you do if someone sponsors you tour ticket?
Everywhere.

3.Whats your favourites thinsg to do?
listen to music, chats, lost more.

4.Do you think money can buy hapiness?
NO!

5.If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
To have no regrets.

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
i guess so.

7.Do you think thr's such things call love? reason?
yes, of cos. no reason =_=

8.Hace you been to the toilet of opposite gender?
Er, yes. hah.

9.What do you dream of doing in the future?
nothing in my mind yet =x

10.List out three good things abt the person who tagged you.
Sokling : Cute! Caring! Helpful! easy going:)
Kenny: Helpful! great friend! harworking! :)

11.What makes you happy?
NATURE.

12.What type of person do you hate most?
none.

13.Where do you see yrself 10yrs down the road?
answer that after 10 yrs.

14.When someone says "can i have your number"?
Depends, its quite impossible to me.

15.Who is the most important person in your life?
my mirror image.

16.What do you think is the most important thing in yr life?
everything!

17.If you have chance to change yr life, what would you want to change?
Change those decisions which regretted .

18.Ever fell of your bed?
No?

19.Are you strong enugh to take up all your emotions & burden all by yrself?
Yes, unless its too serious

20. What would you rather follow yr heart or mind when deciding for the right one?
Both bahs.

Those who wanted to do, go ahead! :)

2008-06-27T06:34:00.000-07:00

Back.
a week had passed just like in few seconds.
times flies.

i will shortcut of days.
lessons as per normal everyday.
and there are some new teachers.
oh ya, and thurs?
we watched a touching show,
named "sorry, teacher!"
it touches my heart, and i teared!
hmm, i love the show, wonders how the ending.

Having cca as per normal,
and we carried out some new plannings,
and preparing for speech day's performance.
anw, 4N/4T is also stepping down soon :(

went back for meeting after sch today,
was a short meeting,
and had practised lion for monday?
hmm, i guess i nv perform for that.
oh,and thnks sharon for the reminder,
sorry for saying that, i knw u feel disappoint.
i know what to do,
and will try my best to do out a good job.
really sorry for that wrong thinking.
sorry .

and i guess my attitude sucks todayy,
sorry everyone.

whole week ended .
and i gonna study hard for now.

2008-06-23T05:38:00.000-07:00

Back to school, just as usual.
Teachers had increased,
timetables change,
changes of teacher for pe,
yup. i guess thats all.

It looks like intensive timetable during friday,
all sciences occupied the day.
Started our lessons,
at least i am able to take in some of the knowledges,
afetr 1 whole month rest. reacalling, haha.

after sch, went to have a short meeting.
i hope this would be carry out succesfully.
And, i slacked. i thought i was gg home to complete every hw's,
but i didn't. =x
Thats all for today.

well, i hope the its not wrong.
my mind is still confusing me,
whether am i statisfies with that.
but, i wont change it,
as i do not want to create anymore troubles.
my mind controlling me, influencing that,
there will be a perfect answer out for me,
and i do hope so.
Somehow, afterall,
i still feel uncomfortable-ness with it,
which saddens me.

2008-06-22T07:55:00.000-07:00

YeA, i am back here finally.
with great news, homework's not done =x
its almost 1 whole week since i posted.

A simple monday with a maths hw done.
A simple tuesday with cca form 9am-5pm.
A simple wednesday with slacking at home.
A simple thursday too with activities at home.
A simple friday with friends to watch Moe concert,
great effort! enjoyed=)

An ordinary saturday without attending mco =(,
and busied for whole morning.

AND, the sunday which is full of tuitions =x

sch re-opening tmr~
i missed my friends!

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